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280909 – a day filled with surprises~~!!

tortoisefarm — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 13:39:30 +0000

280909 indeed was a day filled with pleasant surprises. The best of best would most definitely be the pretty bouquet of roses that came with the super cute and handsome teddy bear from Harrod’s! How sweet~~!! And of course, many many thanks to the sender.
Many other surprises came in the many wishes that came from friends from school whom I have (unfortunately) somehow lost contact. I have to admit at some point of the day, I was a little overwhelmed with emotion.
Many surprises still awaited me even when I was at home.. alone.. lazing around.. when I switched on my laptop and saw Windows 7 loading on my computer….!!! *squeal* Then the really “not-as-slow” performance of my computer meant… new ram! To top it up, mummy came home with ice-cream – my treat for the day! By then, I was really touched~~!! I felt really spoilt and pampered~~!!
Don’t get me wrong I’m not bragging here.. Just felt I should make my appreciation known.
But somehow.. I’d be lying if I said I was totally happy.. really.. I couldn’t help feeling a strange void which only 1 person will understand. Other than that, it was a good day *double thumbs up*
P/S: Oh yea, I will never underestimate the power of Facebook again.

Cute, cheery song…

tortoisefarm — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 15:13:20 +0000

kau gadisku yang manis
coba dekat aku disini
di sini ada aku yang cinta padamu

kau gadisku yang cantik
coba lihat aku disini
di sini ada aku yang sayang padamu

* walau ku tahu bahwa dirimu
sudah ada yang punya
namun aku tunggu sampai kau mau
woo woo jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku
ku kan selalu setia menunggu
untuk jadi pacarmu

woo woo jangan jangan kau tak terima cintaku
jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
putuskanlah saja pacarmu
lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

A love story… let’s write ours!

tortoisefarm — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 15:03:22 +0000

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I’m standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, “stay away from Juliet”
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don’t go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we’re dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, “stay away from Juliet”
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don’t go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don’t know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone
I love you and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It’s a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

‘Cause we were both young when I first saw you

I miss you

tortoisefarm — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 14:47:52 +0000

Ku merindu,
Merindu cinta yang tulus dari hatimu
Selalu ku impikan hidup bersamamu
Ku kan selalu menanti balasan cintamu

Ku berjanji,
Berjanji mencintaimu sepenuh jiwaku
Ku tak akan mendustakan cinta kekasihku
Agar kau dapat menerima cintaku

Ku selalu, merindu cintamu
Yang selalu ada di jiwaku

[Chorus:]
Aku tahu kau pun cinta
Tapi malu tuk berkata
Usah kau ragui cintaku
Ku tetap merindu

Aku tahu kau pun cinta
Tapi malu tuk berkata
Ku tunggu jawapan cintamu
Ku tetap merindu

Di saat ini hatiku rindu belaian cinta darimu
Ku harap kau merestui cinta dariku
Yang selalu setia menunggu dirimu…

In the mood for love… (sounds cheesy I know..)

tortoisefarm — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 12:57:29 +0000

I found some of these meaningful quotes while looking for something for a friend… This is dedicated to all my friends and the people I love, especially that one special someone ;-)

If rain drops were kisses,I could send you showers. if hugs were seas i send you oceans. and if love was a person i send you me!!

ally qwerty

We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.

Unknown

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

Roy Croft

Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful.

Anonymous

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

Anonymous

To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world .

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was choice, but falling in love with you was completely out of my control.

Fantasy, Dreams, Theory and Reality

tortoisefarm — Tue, 12 May 2009 14:51:05 +0000

I came across this blog called The Enkalados Ramblings (sorry I can’t find the writer’s name) and it’s so interesting I thought of spreading what he/she said about simple truths of life which aptly describes my current emotions All credits go to this writer.

Over the past few weeks, I’ve come to realize that there are 4 constants in life: Fantasy, Dreams, Theory and Reality.

Fantasy
In our fantasies, things happen that would never happen. It is the impossible. It is what we all think about to make ourselves better…the fantasy world. It works for movies and video games, but we know it will never happen that way, never in a million years.

Dreams
Our dreams give us a hope, a wish that what we want or need could happen to make us, or someone else, happy. We can sit and daydream of a girl in school, or a promotion at work, and sometimes it might happen. It gives us a motivation to do the right thing to impress that girl, or make a positive impact on your boss to get that promotion. It is the driving force in most of our lives.

Theory
The theory is what should happen. When something goes wrong, following the directions or wisdom of our previous actions leads us to know what should happen. In theory, if we treat that girl right, or give the boss what is asked or more, we “should” get the girl or the job. Unfortunately it usually leads to…

Reality
The cold hard truth…and it hurts sometimes. In reality, nothing ever happens the way we expect. The girl slaps us and turns us down. We get demoted or fired. It’s reality. $hit happens. But sometimes it’s a good reality. Your perfect job opens up and you get it right away. Some unknown girl meets you at a party and 10 years later you have a great life and a perfect kid. It can go either way.

These constants are everywhere. We all have fantasies. We dream daily. We expect an outcome based on the theory. But reality is the end result. So if reality is the final answer, why are there the other 3?

Well…if everyone didn’t have fantasies, how would we enjoy entertainment? The perfect story? The princess’s rescue…the dragon-slayer…the superhero. We all know it can never happen, but we enjoy the stories nonetheless.

If we didn’t have dreams, would we ever get the courage to make the move and talk to that girl? It’s been shown via studies that dreams actually stimulates the brain. It is the unconscience expression of our true desires and fears. If they are there, it gives us an opportunity to act on those desires and fears.

Theory…”This slot machine has to pay out on the next one. It hasn’t paid out in 3 years. It has to.” In theory, it should. No explanation necessary. lol But what about an airplane. Before it was accepted to use a machine to fly through the air, some people believed that it was impossible. They tried many times with theories of how it should work. Most failed. But one succeeded, and led to the Boeing 747. People believed that it was impossible to get light from anything other than a candle. People tried based on theory and they failed. But one succeded. Put a tungsten wire inside a vacuum, and run electricity (another theory) through the wire. A lightbulb was born, and now we have LED lights (after new theories of course.) Without theories, we’d still be stuck impaling cattle with sticks to eat them. It is the reason we have Microwave ovens, and plasma televisions, and cell phones.

Reality is the end result, but without fantasies, dreams and theories, would life be worth living?

Good bye fantasy, hello reality!

tortoisefarm — Tue, 12 May 2009 14:33:48 +0000

This is my first day back to reality. From the land of fantasy and magical dreams, I was literally forced and dragged back to reality. SIGH.. How sad is that! Nonetheless, my magical holiday ended with a splendid breakfast with celebrities. Aaahhh…

But seriously, back to reality, back to Malaysia, back home, back to office, back to my life – everyone is so busy at work. I’m somewhat lost. Or have I been taking things a little easy with the dream holiday in view? A matter of perspective really makes a big difference in life. There are some things I really don’t want to think about but it still comes back to haunt me.. In short, to carry on investing hope or to cease hoping? Tak ingin mengharap tetapi mengharap juga.. (I am starting to not make sense now..)

There’s so much to think.. but I guess I have to start to learn to take things one at a time.. Maybe I could hope and yet, not invest TOO MUCH hope so that I don’t get too disappointed in the end? Interesting but it will be much easier said than done. Right now, I guess I have to concentrate on what I owe Mr COO and to carry on supporting that one person.. ;-P

Commendation and Appreciation

tortoisefarm — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 08:45:57 +0000

When was the last time you commended someone for his/her effort? When did you last show your appreciation to someone who has in one way or another contributed to your life?

Commendation. Appreciation. These are two words, like apology, are easier said than done. But think about it: how did you feel when someone sincerely commended you for your effort? How did you feel when someone showed his appreciation for your contribution? Granted, some tasks are minial and unimportant, but the time and energy spent surely deserves a pat on the back!

Sometimes, we get a little bigheaded, thinking that every job on hand we have, everything we do is important and we are indispensable from the current tasks. So we ‘conveniently delegate’ seemingly easy, unimportant tasks to others (could be our subordinates or others whom we “see” to have a lot of leisure time to while away. Then we give 101 limitations to them to work on their tasks. One could make a slight mistake but instead of letting the one involved know, we tell another who is kindly doing another a favour (which would probably never be repaid) off. Seriously, how could a clueless person know the whys and hows without being informed?

Really, it’s time for us to reflect on how we treat others – PARTICULARLY family, friends, workmates, subordinates. Do we take them for granted for being on standby whenever and wherever we need them to do something? Could we at least try to put ourselves into their shoes and consider what they have done, the trouble they have taken to perform what others call “Value Added Services”? Instead of merely laughing it off as a small matter and act as if it was no big deal, could we at least offer our thanks?

Do not underestimate the power of SINCERE commendation and appreciation. It heightens one’s motivation to continue on serving us. It brightens a person’s day. It brings a smile to one’s face. It brings joy to one’s heart. Most importantly, we show that we care and appreciate every ounce of sweat and energy and willpower that one has used to lighten our workload, our burden.

Remember, SINCERE commendation and appreciation comes from the heart, NOT out of duty or responsibility or because you have to. Otherwise, there really isn’t any use commending and appreciating people. Go, show and tell someone that you care NOW before it’s too late.

A tribute to freedom..

tortoisefarm — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 16:23:21 +0000

A confession: I truly understand the feeling of a herd of cattle stuck in the barn… I felt like a lembu dilepas kandang.

I miss the days when we could go anywhere and everywhere right after class at non-peak hours, ranging from 11am to 3pm and 8pm to the next morning. I miss practicing my vocals at a certain nearby “vocal-training coloured box” and sing till I croak like a frog. I miss going out “yam char” at 12am and chatting with friends about anything and everything and not have any cares and worries about the world… (erm, that kinda explains my dark circles sometimes). I miss wandering around Kuala Lumpur till the wee hours of the night, driving as if the whole street belonged to us (no traffic laws broken!) and looking at KL from a different point of view. Yes, I miss my life before I was bonded to a contract of constant sleepiness and exhaustion => a life of work, work and home.. Please do not get me wrong. It’s just that sometimes stress and anxiety comes FROM home. I’m sure many can emphatise with me.

Gimme just one night…! That’s all I need to recharge.

A tribute to friends!

tortoisefarm — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 16:12:36 +0000

: Pony, Bear and Me

Dear friends (Bear, Pony, Panda, FC, Kiwi, tty, and everyone, just to name a few),

Thank you for the great 3 years we spent together having lots of fun, lepaking, enjoying and playing non-stop. Girls, thank you for being there for me in both good and bad times. I love you all and will never forget you. We probably would not have the chance to spend that kind of time together again but we’ll always remember our sweetest 3 years together. Take care and may we meet again in future!

Yours truly,

Tortoise

Random pictures:

Me, Chee Seng, Summer and Nick Last week of school..BBA 01 - Last IB lectureThe crazy things we did..After tutorial class..